My 20th birthday wish-list.

UPDATED!

I crossed out the ones where I have received. hehe. God is Goooooooooooodddddddddddd.. woo hoo!!.

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I know it’s very very perasaan. Frankly I wouldn’t, but people wanna know what I want. haha. I don’t really need anything right now, but this is all just wants.=)

1. A pair of Zildjian Anti-Vibe 5A sticks. ( even though I hardly play nowadays, I still want it ever since I broke my first one.=| )

2. A Squash Set, racket and balls. =p ( I really do wanna exercise. xD ) courtesy of Ben and Kat. =D thank you!

3.  A  sweater vest. ( always wanted one. chuckbass. haha)

4.  19″ Computer Monitor. ( would definitely make designing and video editing so much easier . =p )

5.  Spongebob Squarepants Boxers. ( waaaaat.. its cute. xD )

6.  Some new sneakers. (after 3 years, my converse is beginning to retire. sigh ) God is good. So are GTPJ leaders. muahahaha.. thank you danny . =) i will continue to slave for u.. LOL

7. A new scent. ( my dior collections are finishing. xD )

8. A full cap. ( also wanted another one since I lost mine like yeaaaaaaars ago. haha. )

9. New Specs!! ( haha.. my power increased. xD and my specs are like scratched one side. lol ) Courtesy of theParents. woo hoo!! i got those thick frame specs. hehehehe.. converse.. geek yo! .=p

10. Sigg water bottle.  ( then i’ll never break my bottle again. haha. )

There, you have it. 10. what a perfect number, half my age-to-be. =)

It’s also 10 days to my birthday fyi. xD

Please, do feel free(or expensive. LOL. so lame) to grant me the desires of my heart. *wink.

woot woot. Sunburst is comingggggggggggggggggg . exams are overrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. rawrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

chaooooooooooooooooooouuuuuuuuuuuuu.

It’s sad when you see someone that used to be so happy,cheerful, having that i-don’t-care’-what-ppl-think attitude, go the freaking opposite way in less than two years. 

It’s sad.

To let your life be controlled by someone, can’t even choose your own friends, you build your life around something, when it’s gone what’d you gonna do? My goodness, and that’s call love? Kiss my ass. I wish people would just grow up. But it’s really heartbreaking, so young. 

Well I guess someday we’ll know has it’s own time for everybody, i just hope it won’t be too late for someone, you know who you are. 

Take Care, J. 

 

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On a happy note. *inserts note with happy face*

LOL. 

Well here’s the list of Movies I have watched and currently own, or not, depends. xD

(there is no particular arrangement of importance not chronological, it purely, random.)

• The Express
• Seven Pound
• Gran Torino
• Young People F***ing
• Kit Kittredge An American Girl
• Righteous Kill
• Bablyon A.D.
• Death Race
• Zack And Miri Makes A Porno
• Lakeview Terrace
• The Women
• Surfer, Dude
• The Midnight Meat Train
• Ghost Town
• Ping Pong Playa
• Disaster Movie
• The Wackness
• Fred Claus
• Open Season 2
• The Fall
• The Mutant Chronicles
• Behind Enemy Lines – Colombia
• The Accidental Husband
• Garden Party
• Shoot On Sight
• The Rocker
• My Best Friends Girl
• Vicky, Christina, Barcelona
• The Curious Case of Benjamin Button
• Balls Out – The Gary Houseman Story
• Jeff Dunham’s Very Special Christmas Special

 

aaah.. there, it’s what i own in my computer, not including ones on dvd. xD

There’s also TV. gosh.

I’m a computer-turnable-chair potato. 

Lotsa lotsa movies coming this y ear, ngek ngek. 

Chaooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo.

Here’s my year end freaking post

My whole year can be summed in the events that have occurred in the past week. 

All my actions in the past year, the consequences caught up, and the price? I hurt someone who loved me. 

Reality struck all too late.

I couldn’t change, I should have, looked in the mirror.

Then only, would I see the monster I’ve become.

It’s ugly. The world is, at least the one I’m living in.

It’s a classic tale of bad boy meets good girl, and it’s hanging by a thread, happy ending or worse nightmare.

Tell me where to go.

Condemnation can push you to things you never thought you could do. To the brink of insanity.

I will never let someone talk to me like that ever again, truth or not, I don’t deserve to be pushed to suicide.

As I sat on  my bed.

The song played, perfect.

If not for your grace. 

Where would I be, if not for Your grace.

It’s true, how many times have grace and mercy rescued me from the grasp of death. 

I’ve had enough. Enough of earthly desires

I’m sick of it. 

I cost me something priceless which isn’t the slightest bit worth it. 

My goal for 2009?

Find myself, get it back. Period. 

I’ve lost my identity along the way, someone stole it, I’m gonna hunt it down and take what belongs to me. That giant ain’t too big. I’m coming back.

For good.

I’m sorry

Of accusers and hypocrites..

It’s hard.

I never knew coming back was gonna be this complicated.

I mean I knew I’ve made tons of mistakes in the past, but to actually get slammed in the face the same day you arrive back at the doorstep of your evil past. it’s harsh. Too harsh for even one like me.

They say truth hurts, and I can’t really come up with an argument to deny that, cos I stared truth in the face, and it really hurts, to know people are going around behind your back. It’s more than backstabbing. It’s personal.

There’s a fine line between putting up a straight face and being damn straight hypocritical. I can put up a straight face and hide my feelings damn well. But some people, my goodness. Wolves, plain wolves. I will not let my self be eaten up.

I guess, it’s reality the world’s not really the best place to live in, but to learn this when I’m like on break and just wanna relax and enjoy time with “friends” and family. Damn I don’t deserve it.

I can’t flip out  or remain silent, cos I really don’t wanna offend anyone, yet what if I offend myself. Doesn’t my feelings count for anything?

Seriously.

All I can do is hope.

After all, it’s only been a day.

Who knows things might turn out for the better, or not

I’m gonna scream like right. here.

&$*!$%!#^$!*&*#^$!(*#&$!*$$$$$$$$$!!!!AAAAAAAAARGGGHHHHHHHHHFFFFFFFFF!!!!!!!?????

Silent screams are my best forte.

I hate having to write this post.

Cos’ it really hurts.

You faithful readers, do not worry, do not even attempt to contemplate my situation.

I’ll get out of it.

I’m strong. That’s what my mama told me y’all. =)

I guess that’s all I need to say. To my faithful place where I can rant in silence.=)

Thank you very much and goodnite. =)

p/s; Sorry for the plethora of emotional waves that strike through the paragraphs of the meaningless alphabetical combination. Forgive thy.

p/p/s: Do not ask what happen, that’s seriously a question I do not wish to answer if possible. okie? =)

2 days til Christmas.

No presents for me this Christmas.

I’ve realize something.

I’ve been more of an A-s-s, than a goodie-two-shoes this year. 

Like the way I treat people around me, the way I’ve acted and reacted towards certain situation. 

I can go on blaming all the causes that surround me, but ultimately it is me who is to blame. 

Everyone has dark secrets, only, I guess mine’s not so secret. 

I’ve hurt more than I’ve been hurt.

And that attitude of not givin’ a damn about what people think has got to go. Not that I’m saying the attitude is bad. It’s good that you not let what people’s opinion affect you. But when their opinion’s right then I guess one should just accept the truth.

Levi Asher should not have a tainted image, and i will try my best, to wipe of that horrible image you have of me, and replace it with a clean, better, and awesome one.=)

All I can say is, sorry if I have hurt you guys in my speech or actions, intentionally or unintentionally.

I’ll change.

No more Mr. Not-So-Nice-Guy. 

2009 won’t be the same.  

I can’t really say
Why everybody wishes they were somewhere else
But in the end, the only steps that matter
Are the ones you take all by yourself

Can’t Go Back Now – The Weepies 

I don’t like the fact that I am not one of the first who watched Dark Knight.

Why do I have to wait. pfft.

Faster you guys with exams. rawrrrr…..

IMAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

=)

I went to Tony’s with someone.=)

Guess who. =p

Pre- Camp Post

I just got back from Camp yesterday.

I LOVED it!

Even though it was two nights and took me a lot of effort to get there.

It was worth it.

I got what I wanted, which was giving to me on the very last few hours of camp.

I got to know a few new people.;)

I learned a new game (Sabotuer) which I suck at.XD

I completed a camp ritual (stay up on the last night of camp)

Come to think of it, this is the perfect start to my legacy at the Glad Tidings Family Camps.=)

Cheers for more.=)

oh oh!! Pictures. I managed to borrow Asher from Su Li. She’s threating to charge soon. haha.. But she’s nice.=)

I will upload soon. Once I get to work with my one and only uber hot Captionist.=p

Til’ then.=)

Here’s a preview|-

This is what I call DRYPERS DAGING DOUBLE SPECIAL CHEESE BURGER

It sucks when your parents don’t trust you, it really does.

What more should I expect from people trusting me. No wonder I don’t have that many best friends. Just the hi and bye ones.

I realize now, that when I cry, I cry alone, no longer will my mum comfort me like she used to, according to her, I have to be independent now, survive on my own, pay for my own food, transport, living, education, basically my whole life from now on.

I think I’m gonna get a second job soon, cos this one won’t be enough.

Anyone know any part-time well paying job opening?

It sucks when this happens, when you don’t have someone who understands you without asking, only people who come running with concern after reading your blog.

Why God? Why?

I hate this very very much.

I can’t even pursue my dreams.

Why?

Because my parents don’t trust me.

One Shot

I’m gonna do this in one post:-

A shout out to the May Babies in one post ngek.

1st May.

Andrew Rumende

Hottest bro-in-law… hehehehehehehehehe…

When coming back to Malaysia dei..

3rd May

Tan Kae Mern

still the lame king..   for now… hehehe…

6th May

Danny Tan

Thanks for being there when I needed someone.=)

You rock la.

p/s: Faster get married la UNCLE!!! =p

11th May

Chevonne Goh

Even though we rarely talk in college, you still invited me to your 21st… sobs* Im touched.. you boosted my really low self-esteem.. thank you.. hehe..=)Fishy.

12th May

Ben Israel

Thanks for continuing to fetch me even though I ffk you berapa ribu kali (inability to wake up on time).

You’re one of my inspirations.=)

Thank you, Big bro..

12th May

SuYen Pang

Known you for almost a year now. yet you’ve been awesome.=)

We’ll try to celebrate your bday as soon possible k… In this month for sure..=p

Along with that non-food related present. hehe.

So that’s it. ! If you’re not in here… means ur somewhere even more special. In my mind.=)

Chao chao..

Happy Birthday May babies!!!=)