Day 1

I opened my eyes, it’s day. Already? I sigh heavily, pull myself up and out, against the force of gravity. I recollect the events of yesterday, a rush of emotions slam into me. Pushing me back onto my bed. I put my palms on my face, covering. As if to resemble shame. I’m lost. Once again. I thought I had walked into the right path, only to see it taken away from me. Why? How? What? I don’t know now. I really don’t. I have lost confidence, passion, zeal, and, myself. What’s the point of working so hard, yet the only desire of my heart comes unfulfilled. It has all, come undone.

Family Camp Pics

Here are some of my favorites:-

It’s Intriguing. =p

Charlie’s Angel. XD

Shoes. =)

Never too young to be a fisherman

*Beams.*=D

Painting Picture.

Smiley Tak Jadi. lol

Baby Joshua.

Baby Aiden.

Killer Eyes. =p

Father and Son.

That’s about it.=)

For the rest go to my FlickR.

I have no idea why I cant uplaod my sets here like I used to. Oh well.=)

Thank you SuLi for the cam again.=)

Pre- Camp Post

I just got back from Camp yesterday.

I LOVED it!

Even though it was two nights and took me a lot of effort to get there.

It was worth it.

I got what I wanted, which was giving to me on the very last few hours of camp.

I got to know a few new people.;)

I learned a new game (Sabotuer) which I suck at.XD

I completed a camp ritual (stay up on the last night of camp)

Come to think of it, this is the perfect start to my legacy at the Glad Tidings Family Camps.=)

Cheers for more.=)

oh oh!! Pictures. I managed to borrow Asher from Su Li. She’s threating to charge soon. haha.. But she’s nice.=)

I will upload soon. Once I get to work with my one and only uber hot Captionist.=p

Til’ then.=)

Here’s a preview|-

This is what I call DRYPERS DAGING DOUBLE SPECIAL CHEESE BURGER

a OK year.

I feel bad for neglecting the readers that have still been faithfully checking my blog eventhough I have yet to update since about a week ago! Gosh!!

Thank you though for being so silently persistent. =)

Thus I will now blog.

And it so happens to be a year from when I first started this blog, when I moved on from the crappy levisanatomy. When I started to see how screwed up I am (not that I’m screwed down already), and then changed before I killed myself.

So a lot has happened, good and bad, it’s things that I won’t regret, but yet I might and might never want to relive it again. It is a love-hate thing. I learned good lessons from it. Thank God no one died or got knocked up in the process. *phew*

I might have judged people or situations wrongly, but I will never take back what I say, because whatever comes out at the moment, it what it is, even though I may not mean it that much now, but it is what I meant at that heat of the moment. So yea, live with it.

I have no idea where I am going with this post, seriously, you should notice by now.

I admit i ain’t that good of a blogger IF I have no passion towards the particular topic. But what I do have, is the ability to cultivate passion just for the sake of it. =)

But I just wanna thank you for the people who have stuck by me through the year, you guys have been great, no doubt, I don’t wanna name all of ya, you know who you are. If you think it’s you then it is. Even though you may not remember, but at some point, you did make a positive impact in my 2007/2008 season.

I will end with this story, from the book Like the flowing RIver by Paulo Coelho;-

The story of the Pencil,

A boy was watching his grandmother write a letter. At one point, he asked:

‘Are you writing a story about what we’ve done? Is it a story about me?’

His grandmother stopped writing her letter and said to her grandson:

‘I am writing about you, actually, but more important than the words is the pencil I’m using. I hope you will be like this pencil when you grow up.’

Intrigued, the boy looked at the pencil It didn’t seem very special.

‘But it’s just like any other pencil I’ve ever seen!’

‘That depends on how you look at things. It has five qualities which, if you manage to hang on to them, will make you a person who is always at peace with the world.

‘First quality:you are capable of great things, but you must never forget that there is a hand guiding your steps. We call that hand God, and He always guides us according to His will.

‘Second quality: now and then, I have to stop writing and use a sharpener. That makes the pencil suffer a little, but afterwards he’s much sharper. So you, too , must learn to bear certain pains and sorrows, because they will make you a better person.

‘Third quality: the pencil always allows us to use an eraser to run out any mistakes. This means that correcting something we did is not necessarily a bad thing; it helps to keep us on the road to justice.

‘Fourth quality: what really matters in a  pencil is not it’s wooden exterior but the graphite inside. So always pay attention to what is happening inside you.

‘Finally, the pencil’s fifth quality: it always leaves a mark. In just the same way, you should know that everything you do in life will leave a mark, so try to be conscious of that in your every action.’

Paulo Coelho, I wanna be like him someday, writing words that have meaning, true meaning behind them. I love this book and i’ll be posting stories from it time to time, the ones that I really like. So yea…

Happy Birthday Transitions. =)

Keep on coming people, love ya! XD

So training ended yesterday..=)

Three days with random people from random places around klang valley which in the end turned out to be one helluva unique bunch of peeps.=)

Gonna miss them. *no im not gonna cry*

But yea, training was boring though, learning stuff i could have learned at the outlet, which I did learn the Ice Blended stuff before I went to training.

Big disappointment because they took out the Gourmet training out of their program. Have to learn yourself on the job. Goodness. Which in other words means during rush meal hours. =S

But yea, other than that they of course brainwashed us with Coffeebean history and values and bla bla bla…

I’m not a theory guy. pfft

I love Coffeebean.=)

Not LOVE love la, but yea, enough to make me stay there for I guess quite awhile.=)

I CAMWHORED WITH JOHN LEGEND

This is as real as it gets!

Even though the picture may be blur(I blame the bodyguard who took this), It’s still worth a million buck babeh!!

As thousand of fans screamed when he performed, with some girls willing to flash their you-know-what, I got to see him backstage after that. MUAHAHAHAHAHAHA

It’s just surreal, meeting the Master of R&B and Soul, the Legend himself.

My only regret that night was not bringing the Nikon D80. Because I was told I wouldn’t be able to bring it in, I didn’t want to risk it, and also it rained. BUT! Meeting John Legend was able to surpass that.

Awesooooooooooomeee!!!

I shall steal some pics from people soon.=)

*thanks Joni for the cam.

I shall now go drown myself in John Legend music. muahahahahahahahahaha…..

Friends.

 

 

 

 

 

Lovers may come and go, but friends, they stay forever.

Take care future Dr. Rebecca Chew.

Will definitely miss you.

=)

Life without B..

.. will be tough.

It’s tough losing someone you consider more than a best friend.

Someone where even though you had one of the worse days in your life, that sweet voice at midnight just seems to make it all go away.

The person that was the reason behind my smile for the last three months.

It’s just gonna be hard.

I might cry, but I won’t sulk.

I won’t go on begging for an explanation, that one text message was enough.

I promise I wont go I-hate-the-world and the-world-hates-me.

What a week. Falling sick. Chest Pains started again. Mental block and it had to end with this. Perfect.

I’m sorry if at times I was an ass. I never meant to be. I’m sorry if I wasn’t the most romantic guy ever, I really tried to be. I’m sorry if I made you change the way you feel towards me. At least now you can tell your friend, it was summer love.

I’m sorry.

I told everyone but myself it was gonna work. How stupid

That moment at the lift in PD was still the highlight though.

Cheers to good times. At least they last in the memory.

Got to get myself together and sit for this one bloody semester finals.

Your best friend said I don’t know you well enough. I guess she’s right.But I don’t know you at all would be more appropriate in my opinion.

I do hope those that read this will read between the lines and not ask dumb annoying questions. Cause I won’t bother replying em’.

Midnight calls anyone? =| Not that anyone could replace B

p/s: Expect the next few posts to be a little melancholic though. Just a little. I’m trying my best to keep it all inside. Because the person I tell my problems to has left. *tries to smile*

More pics…

Pics from Suz and Yen’s Cam.

I love my flops.=)

This is what we found in warisan. You have to walk freaking 63meters if you have a stomach ache to the nearest toilet. %@$!$@?!

 

What’s with the face you say? It’s due to sucking in the F. =p

I took this! =D It’s some magician “celeb” Andrew recognized when we were in Starbucks.

I took this again!! haha.. notice how the top left heart buldges? It’s was actually moving out to the centre to create a “5 of hearts”.

I FINALLY have one of em’ take-a-pic-of-yourself-in-the-mirror-shots.=)

Audition for Alvin and the Chipmunks 2. XD I took this!! Again!!

I need my OWN camera.=(

My Primary School !!! *grins*

SRK. ST. AGNES. =)

If you ever step on Sabah land.. You HAVE to try this. Sabah dumplings! It’s heavenly I tell you. *drooooolllsss*

It’s pronounced as “Wo tieh”

Seriously.

 

 

Some pictures are best left un-captioned.=)

For like the whole collection you have to wait for the Pang sisters. Which are taking like forever to upload, even with the accessability of internet. pfft. =p

Til the next trip!

Langadon oku Sabah – I miss Sabah. =’)

 

This is a title

I jus realized I havent had a title in AGES. lol. Random.Anyways.. got the pics! weee… From Andrew. and thats only one cam.pft.

Here are like my fav.=)

 

Soooo cute kan?=D He looked better than the airhostess’s.=p

 

That’s how FAT i am.pfft… Til my sides are bulging. rawrr. But, it’s Beck’s Conducive Hug. That’s all that’s good about the FATS. heh. I shall stop using the F word now.=p

 

One day. Just one day. I will own one of that. haihh…

 

Manukan Island. Beautiful even when it rains.

 

Sam’s place at kundasang. Where ‘stuff’ happened. But whatever happened at Kundasang stays there.=p

 

We headed to the POW Memorial. It’s a memory of what happened during WW2 where at least 700 Aussie and British soldiers died in the death march.(Go wiki for more info) 

 

But… it’s all good now. We love aussies, and the brits. =)

 

History makes us high.

 

Love this shot. Thats how I look when I’m constipating. =p

 

I was trying to do the Su li face..XD

 

*Inserts marching beat here* Patriotic konon. Was in the mood bah..

Great company to go Holiday with. Thanks peeps.=)

 

Let’s go again!!=p

 

More pics here and here.(It comes with a daily journal too)